Another first date

I went on another first date last night. I had my usual moments of anxiety beforehand. I thought about rescheduling it but then I thought, I should get the hell out of the house and away from the teenagers who were making me crazy. And so I did. And I had a great time. His name is John. We met at the local Barnes & Noble for a coffee and conversation. The conversation was wonderful. It was great to engage in an intelligent conversation with a man. It's been so long. We talked for 4 hours. We didn't leave until the store closed. The end of the date was a little awkward. I think he wanted to kiss me but I wasn't ready for that. We didn't make any plans and he didn't say he'd call so I'm just going see what happens. In the meantime, I have plans to meet another man for coffee. Goddess, I hate first dates.